What has happen throughout these years

In 2014, it has been life changing or should I say, a turning point for me. At the age of 24, life is suppose to be full of hope, after graduation, future should be full of wonderful adventure waiting in front of me, like any other graduate. But not mine, it had a twist. Like a lemon squeeze. Right after I got a job offer from one of the prominent company in the country, after a month, my most beloved mother has passed away. Never would I have imagine this day would come so early and so unexpectedly, my life crumpled.I had my most long awaited engineering degree graduation without one person who is most important in my life, who deserve more than anyone to celebrate with, someone who I followed her footstep. All things and events celebration throughout my life have somehow not turn out 100%. Someone, something, somewhat are missing. Life is interesting, yes, I always have a feeling of missing, in all milestone I achieve. Despite so, life move on. It wasn't easy, but, life has to move on. Within 2014 till date, I graduated, got my first career, have our first little nephew, being the young Engineer chairlady of an engineering institution, engaged to my uni boyfriend, bought my first property, got married, conceived, having career progression etc. I went through ups and downs. I was forced to be independent, the hardest part is losing a friend who can advice and listen to you. The relationship is very special, especially when I am the closest to my mom. Being a highly dependent person at home, not having her around to support mentally really wasn't easy. I have learn a lot and I would say many many more that I need to learn. I am force into a situation where I need to be independent. Managing the house, juggling with my career and private life. What more to say, having a family. Thank God I have supportive family, husband, in-laws, extended family and friends. The naiveness, the bubbly me has somehow just vanish. Vacuum and anchor down to the world with responsibility and commitment. The soul has somewhat lost it's energy and created a little void. The dreams has deemed. Don't get me wrong, not emotional, just 感触。haha Well, I guess this is what people or the world so call refer as, grown up. lol. I believe I have live the so called generically ideal, nothing to complain, safe path type of life. Well, so that's it. This is what that has happen throughout my few MIA years.